AND so.. I rejected the job at far east
hehehehe
too tired working these three days
decided to take a good long rest b4 start of work again;D

Today is a not so long post day cause my eyes are closing

Tml going on a date with beee
very long time since we go out alone
im looking forward!!!!!!!!!!!
HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO

I FEEL SO SHAG SHAG SHAG:(
My legs are breaking. 8hours of standing.
eeeew. Working on Monday [full time leh]
HOW? FEEL LIKE NOT WORKING AND JUST PLAY PLAY PLAY
HOW HOW HOW
BUT I WANT $$$$$ TOOOOOOO.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

VENDA told me today she was as skinny as me
but she managed to gain weight through ballet dancing!!
OMG. So happppy to hear that! HAHAHAHAHA;D
I STILL HAVE HOPE IN GAINING WEIGHT.
I have been trying to eat supper
and my weight is still da same-.-

Saw a lot of Caucasians today at work
they are so ohhhhhh-myyyy.
SUPER POLIET!
They say things like " The honey looks really great, but it's ok, have a great day ahead!"
"You look amazing today, what're u selling?"

OOOHHHHH MYYYYYY.

Singaporeans reply " It's ok, still have a bottle at home"
"What is this thing here?"

HAHAHAHA
So different lor!
I bumped to a lot of old friends lately!!!
Sneezing non-stop
:((((((((((((((

First work Day!



Customer: Where do all these honey come from?
Me: The bees?

Most embarrassing moments:O Worked at Suntec today;D My first ever offical job hehehehee. Have a booth of my own. I psycho a auntie to drop the bottle of honey she is holding and buy mine instead^^! HAHAHAHA. Suntec has friendly peeps! Made one new friend today named VENDA. Uniquely strange,hehe. I CANT WAIT FOR PAY DAY!!!! So dreadful. I have to wait one mth:(


I brought a shoes [flower printed] at bugis today tooo! My work shoe leh! Working full time from Monday onwards. No more freedom:(
BUT having a one day break every weekends. The boss is friendly tooo.

Heading to bed. Dump

It's not that i dont want to say anything
im just afraid of everything else
cause u seemed so far and beyond reached
i can scream and shout in a room and not get the attention i want
i love u so so much but i feel constantly hurt in various ways.
I dont know what happened, but i cant have the assurance.
This hurts so much.

i suck.im confused. what should i do?
How can i say to make u understand
its so hard to even open my mouth and be trueful.
God.Kill me
Teach me what to do in order to salvage in order to say what i want to say
cause its choking me and beyond what i can handle now.
i love u so much.More than u can even imagine

I love to be around ur presence, to hold u so that i feel safe
from everything else


I feel like dying

Tagged by Jas:D

1. Do you have secrets?
- Yes!

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
- Nah

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Depending how much u're in love with that someone

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- SHOP SHOP. Give family, treat bee bowling

5. What will you be doing tomorrow?
- going to chruch and working

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Being loved by someone

7. What do you love doing?
- I love to slack.heee

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- wish him or the best but i think i will be very sad. But i will still move on:)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- YES

10. Do you secretly dislike anyone without them knowing?
- Think so.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- I want see myself working and dating

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- My family, friends

13. What will you do if tomorrow is the end of the world?
- hug everyone

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- married but poor

15. What is your favourite colour?
-BLACK

16. If you’re attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
- Control myself?

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- You can always forgive but hard to forget

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- That he is the most amazing person i feel in my heart.

19. What if you caught your bf/gf doing stuffs (only God knows what) with other girls/guys?
- Break up imediately, no point staying in a r/p that is one sided. I will hate the guy forever [i think]

20. Do you believe that there’s “Love At First Sight”?
- Heee, not really.

5 people to do this survey:

I dont know who to tag.Hee

Was struggling to wake up cause im feeling a little sick. But dragged myself to for the job later in afternoon. ENDED UP IT WAS SHIFTED TO TML!!! :(
Later buying bbq food [I think] so currently im slacking. Watching pps! Hehe
After i worked i alr planned what i want to buy!!!
I want..
DYE HAIR [i like Belinda's hair color.so...hahaha]
Buy skirt and shorts
um..
Buy accessories[ i dont have any bangles:(]
A pair of shoes [i only have flip flops at home]

Ok..roughly like that. AND i promised bee to treat him bowling.Hahaha.
Off to my slack-ish day

OOOO.I love this picture.
Super super tired. SUPER. Woke up early to meet ys at interchange and brought things together:D I brought one nail buffer stick. Very fun! Happppyyy. Then went job hunting! First to cityhall then funan mall and one wierd place call like aplendi. Hopefully at least one can get in. Later at night went to play ball!

Now is not twelve yet, but HAPPY EIGHT MTHS BEEEEE!

Love this song:D, find it quite meaningful
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wated
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I could turn off my phone
Tell evveryone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

(Chorus)

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

(Chorus)

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy




For the song abv, I think if im not wrong in front it says:
Girl- What u u want
Boy-Honesty
Girl-Commitment between you me. Us.

Im currently BROKE. Not even a single fifty cent coin in my purse. Sucks right?Haha!
Today i enjoyed myself with bee:D Finally a day out for us. Came as a shock for me:O [actually not so bad lah] heeee. Went to book class chalet. YES! The person thought i was my sister, cause I used my sis IC to book, haha must 18years old then can book. Lol. I LOOK LIKE MY SISTER! Then wanted to bowl, but no lanes-.-! Bee planned to come over my house and stay for a while. But ended up, cannot again lol. Went to mart to buy food and bumped to YAYA!

Tml finding jobs again!
The interviews i had havent called me! And it's alr two days..grr

Changed skin again!!! HEH:D
Going out now!
My lips are red and sore.
Booking chalet and singing k! Here I go..

ASIA CONFERENCe OPENING CEREMONY! Hahaha, really enjoyed it. Didn't see much ang mohs, but saw a lot of people from Taiwan! Before going to church, went to town for dental again. Stupid braces. Torturing me. I also brought one new white skirt! Heee. My first white skirt. But now still altering. Today going to church alone was quite a sad thing, because i saw many going in large groups or in pairs. But I think my cg never fails to disappoint me:DD They came all the way frm work just to acc me, how sweet! Their presence really make a whole lot of difference to me. Through this, really could sense their love and care for me. ITS THROUGH THE LITTLE THINGS THAT MEANT MUCH.

im having headaches now-.- many many things to arrange

Yipppe! Found jobs today! It's not confirmed but most probably will cause the boss chatted very long with me :D heee. The most attractive one U got would be working at town! Dkny somemore, working with Ian. Yeah! If i work there, i can get discounts for the whole Club 21 series, can work with Ian [at least a friend there to guide you] plus plus my dad can fetch me, provide for my meals cause he working at Takashimaya only. Like super good right? Hahaha, but rather hard to get in i think. See their faces like all 18years old. Then the second one i went for would be the Bugis Junction one, 4.50$ one hr, plus incentives and commission. I was standing there, and could say the sales were pretty not bad. If I work full time, the pay will be quite good. Eleven hours and one hour and a half's break in btw. Hahaha.

Stiwching topics, tml will be church's BIG BIG event. Yeaaahh! Super excited. Can see all people from all nationalities:D ang mohs! heeee. I will be very busy for church these few days- i think. and class chalet!

ANYWAY! CLASS CHALET IS ON MONDAY, TIMING NOT CONFIRM. PASIR RIS CHALET. BOOKING NOT CONFIRM TOO. CONFIRM ALR WILL MASS SEND MSG-ES:)

Going to catch more shows on pps later on..I HATE BRACES. It's super uncomfortable and i don't feel anything when i chew. But it's going to be nice straight small teeth! hehe. My front tooth will be duper tiny [as described by doctor], cant wait after 6mths. Hopefully, it will be lesser than 6mths. And I want do something to my hair! Like caveman -.-

I think every girl wants a guy which is decisive, positive thinking, sweet, caring, and gives quality time and attention, someone that can make her feel important and vital. A listening ear, a encouraging voice. A guy who the girl can trust with all her life. The one who do and plan silly surprises just to lighten up her day. Oooo. And I think guys who know sports and speaks well are attractive as well.

On the other hand, i think a girl would hate a guy who is always complaining, indecisive, not a good planner, unsure and not confident, frustrated and argues with you all the time. Dont have a forgiving and care for needy?
AH. I don't know what im typing, just personal opinions:D

OFF to watch pp stream:)
AND im enjoying life now, watching pps, chatting on msn and playing stupid games:D
THOUGH i feel lonely, but im actually enjoying what im doing. Hahaha.
AND i deleted all my msg-es in my inbox. First step of ...ya.

BYEBYE

omg. I am having so much fun in msn. Hahaha. It's really damn funny, cant stand it. Tml first job interview!!! a little nervous but should be quite alright. Have to travel all the way to National Library to interview. Haha. Can be quite tiring. Dental check up tml too! Going on a minor op soon.The doctor says my teeth are too big and squarish haha so have to make it smaller and push it back. Have to pluck off tooth again.Injections again. But this time at a guaranteed success. I cant wait for my new set of teeth! Hee. Going with bee and brandon tml. Then heading down to Mount E for checkup..going to be a long day, so resting now.haha. Nights!

Btw! thank you jas for the gift, really very sweeeet:)

YOH!!!
Blog is back HAHA. Just so lazy to blog these days. TODAY went church in the morning, and omg I was nearly late. Lucky still have seats for me.hee. Then went mall to eat with weilie's sister, yuze,weilie,stef and blah blah..Was eating peacefully when a cockroach was climbing on my leg! Initially thought it was like plastic bag, but it itchs so much that i can't ignore it.HAHA. I didn't scream at all. But everyone saw it and got very freaked out. IM FINDING A JOB!!! It's so boring to be at home all the time. But tml going to pasir ris park! Feel that it's going to be a super duper fun day. From today onwards, it marks a new beginning in my life, no more sadness over things tt are not worth it:DDD From now on, im living for myself. And so far, im doing pretty well. Life will still be the same no matter what. And im glad what i have gone through made me realize that some things are beyond our control and people do change as time passes. But it's alright. One day they'll know:D It's getting late and im turning in soon.
I love everyone in this world cause im feeling so happy right now!

Hmmm.
Good night!

I FEEL so stress-free now
HOW!!
Tml dnt paper and i have no motivation to study anymore cause i taking my amaths marks.
but i don't want my cert to look ugly.
And what's more today is cat's brithday
should be a fun day but dnt is pulling us down.

grrrrrrrrrrrr!

Beyonce Knowles If I Were A Boy Lyrics
[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Yesterday night was draining. I don't know why but I poured out everything to Fel.Haha
She gave me good advices and I thought I really should move on in life. Yesterday was a reality check for me. I dont want to hide anymore It's rare that i will pour out to a friend. But miraculously, fel understood every single portion of my feelings. I guess we are all girls and have been put several times in this kind of situation before. It's a very heartening feeling that people understands how u truly feel inside without yourself saying much words. I just typed one short msg and yet she saw it right through. Hahaha, Fel is my new ou xiang. KOPIIIIS.

Studying ss is madness.
I am going crazy with the long chunks of texts.
SAVE ME

Brenda,17
Tampines Junior College
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